My Search For A Canine Companion…

… has taken me on an internet tour of most canine adoption and rescue centres both locally and nationally in Scotland.My Search For A Canine Companion This search has given me intense feelings of joy and, sometimes, of sadness. It pains me to see how many beautiful animals have been discarded in severe states of neglect by their owners but I feel encouraged by the many agencies which exist to pick up the pieces.

My search began because, for the first time in my life, I feel that I could handle the responsibility of owning a pet and giving it a real home. I thank my lucky stars that I never took on this responsibility when I was drinking. Although I was mentally susceptible to having a companion of any kind, I never succumbed to the temptation of bringing an animal into my life. So, my search continues. I’m in no hurry. Its one of those things that will happen when its meant to.

Finding a pet to share my home is no spur of the moment decision. Love at first sight or ” I want it ” doesn’t come into the process at all. I have to think about practicalities and what will be best for my dog as well as myself, and the first step for me was to obtain permission from my landlord ( housing association ) to keep a dog on their premises. Thankfully I was granted permission to keep a small sized dog.

No problem now then ? There are always problems but just as many solutions. My next step will be to save up some money which I can make available when the right dog makes their self known to me. Gone are the days when dogs were passed around like worthless chattels to be ill treated and misused, thank goodness. Although it doesn’t work in my favour, I’m pleased to see these charges which will deter unsuitable owners.

One thing that has worried me a bit on my internet excursions is the large amount of Staffordshire Bull Terriers waiting to be rehomed. Because I’m unused to looking at these pages , maybe its a seasonal thing. They are lovely dogs. My step-daughter and family have one and they have brought up 4 children whilst bringing up the dog, without a single incident. I saw her ( the dog ) recently after a period of five years had passed and I swear that she remembered me. Unfortunately, I can’t have one here, but they are not a breed to be overlooked by anyone looking for a gentle and loyal, if occasionally boisterous, companion.

I’m not a big Facebook fan or user but I have joined a few groups which are dedicated to owners of the breed I am fond of. I must also mention that, most days I don’t feel 100% well within myself, and don’t particularly look forward to dragging myself through another period of waking hours. However, when I view the posts of other members’ dogs and the videos, I suddenly find myself grinning, cheshire cat fashion, having forgotten all my trials and tribulations. Maybe Facebook isn’t so bad after all.

Meanwhile, I’ll continue to browse, before continuing my journey in the real world to meet a few of the characters who are looking for a new home and to see if that vital connection can be made. I’ll post my progress here.

SoberVision

more to come…

Festivities Are Over…

…for the time being and its a full on return to the madness we have come to know as normality, only to revert to festivities once again as the weekend approaches and New Year, of course.

I have nothing extraordinary to report regarding Christmas. The day arrived, the same as any other, and went , the same as any other. Very little happened in between, which is just fine by me. I can’t, for the life of me, understand the apparent necessity of becoming totally stressed out and wanting to be amongst crowds of anxious people trying to grab a last minute bargain in cold, wet weather, before becoming even more stressed out by preparing a huge meal, most of which ends up as leftovers.

Perhaps part of the reason for this is that, for the main part, I have very few pleasant memories of Christmas in the past.Festivities are Over Many Christmases were ruined by alcohol and not always the alcohol inside me. In my early years, before alcohol became a feature in my life, most Christmases were spent in abject misery, amid raised voices and worse from downstairs, as my parents tried to sort out their drink fueled differences. Presents lay, still unopened, with the joy of opening them having having been rendered null and void and dinner was often late and hastily prepared, by which time, the hunger and anticipation had been replaced by anxiety and nervousness and fear of a return to hostilities.

Over 50 years on, the wounds have healed, but the thin layer of scar tissue can be peeled away at any time to reveal the pain of those Unmerry Christmases.

On A Lighter Note…

…after years of self denial, I am thinking about bringing a dog into my life, and my home. I’m in no hurry because outside influences may still prevent it from happening.

I never had a dog before because of my erratic behaviour through alcohol and would never have been able to care for it properly. There is still part of me which is afraid of commitment and the thought of bringing something into my life which I could just as easily lose again is daunting. Having once lost everything I ever loved, I have kept a respectable distance between myself and other people ever since.

So, this won’t be just any dog. I won’t have a dog just to say “Look at me, I’ve got a dog”. Hopefully it will become part of our peaceful home and enjoy long walks around the area I live, with its wide open countryside and seashore. Time will tell.

The only certain thing is the breed of dog that I like. It would be a full Jack Russell terrier or one of its combinations with other breeds such as chihuahua and a rescue dog preferrably. It was a Jackahuahua which prompted my interest in having a dog again. We met on my recent excursion down South and it was love at first sight….from my point of view anyway.

However, I’ll take my time and be certain of my own abilities to handle such responsibility with the full attention it deserves, and like all good things, if its meant to happen, I’m sure it will.

SoberVision

more to come…